Saturday, September 17, 2011
i am not stupid
i'm just feigning ignorance
things don't happen without a reason.
even if someone's been hacking into your account and have had ur previous photos,
they won't be able to access your current fotos.. not the updated ones that you've taken using ur photobooth on macbook pro (esp since i'm e one who's paying for the macbook pro now)
you took those fotos and u have taken more fotos in your iphone too.. what u have done with them, i don't want to speculate anymore
you have a skype account called keft
you've an online portal account called keft
why so?
u told me that u don't like to see me being on those portals all e time, and yet, u have been frequenting them when you are free
you've more than one email accounts
esphalt
rectify-
so on and so forth,
one check on adium, u can tell everything...
if u say that the rest of the accounts cannot be used cos someone had been hacking into them, how come since the last time u cant add me back onto ur old account, u are still using the new ones to chit chat with other ppl?
the latest conversation is even just last month
and why would the person who is hacking into ur account know that u are going out with a doc
and also that u are going to taiwan for holidays
why do u need to ask if the person's top/btm
why do u want to know his "shoe" size
and why do u want to arrange to meet the person when u are gg to taiwan with ur doc
is that why u suggested that we go to a club in taiwan?
i have so many questions in my mind
but u have flared up at me to tell me to stop doubting you
yes, i can stop doubting
but yes, my heart has stopped beating as well
i'm not gg to shed tears for you anymore
we will go to tpe
you can do what u want with the guy kas
you are obviously still talking to him
and u find him hot anyway
a hot btm, in ur words
just nice for you
since your doc is not having a hot bod anyway
i've decided
i'll not let my market value drop further
i don't deserve this, before this, i'm always wanted
i'm making choices out of ppl
why do i have to make myself a social imbecile now?
lose my blob train my fitness
i'll show it to the ppl ard me that this is what i can achieve
with or without you
i'm disappointed, why? cos u chose to delete all those emails u had
little dirty secrets
your tracks arent clean
neither is mine
i know i've commited mistakes before and i've tried to remedied them
one lie leads to another lie
it's a vicious cycle
if you are just going to keep going round in circles
one day u will lose urself too
how many stories can u fabricate
tell me if u r e kind who have fetishes
tell me if u still want to explore
be honest with me
i don't ask u questions out of nowhere
u think i'm just bringing up e topic of altern out of nowhere?
u think i'm saying army hookups for nothing?
it's disgusting to know that when u are stroking urself, u are thinking abt someone else
u think i talk abt outdoor fun for pure interest and suggestion?
4th june
1st may
2nd july
yes
feigning ignorance is what i am going to do now
i don't want to spoil my trip
like what i've told u back then when i was planning for my japan trip
i won't let others spoil my trip
i'll go on e trip and come back
whether we are going to start anew together or i'm going to start afresh on my own
we will eventually see
i love u
and i've seen how my love has blinded me before
it's a scary tot
how much it has hurt me before and how much i drown in it
you are still young
and u've a bright future ahead of u
u need to explore
but i don't.. all i want is to settle down
i wish both of us e best
D.A. flew at 6:01 PM
